Goodbye, Leo

As soon as my eyes shut, the slide show begins,
Yesterday is gone now and panic sets in,
With a weight upon my chest and a ghost on my back
And the numbing sensation of everything I lack
That leaves me dreaming, dreaming, dreaming
Your real world away.
-Brandi Carlile "Late Morning Lullaby"


How many times in life do people, animals, jobs, love, and good times leave you or perhaps more challenging, you have to leave them? Sometimes it is sudden, other times it is planned. Sometimes you have to leave good things behind to reach other goals, to find other happiness. This is what I face now, with my horse Leo finding himself a new home. I gave him up to open the opportunity of not being locked into my current job and/or perhaps buying a house. I put my faith in the possibilities the future to get me through the pain of saying goodbye. I know he will be fine and make his own happiness in his new place, seducing treats out of people with his nickers. Oh, but for me, I see on the horizon more change, more saying goodbye, to things I love dearly and to things I don't, but just cannot seem to pull myself away from.